Hobinya perempuan kayagitu. Mendem perasaan.

Seenggaknya, I’m that girl.

I am that girl who’ll never text first when courting, who’ll never ask to meet up first, who’ll never confess her feeling even, it’s killing her.

Gue, orang yang takut penolakan dan lebih memilih sakit mendem perasaan daripada ditolak.

Implicitly published lewat social media mungkin bisa jadi salah satu alternatif.

But, it’s torturing, you know?

dan sekarang, I’m on that stage, on that part again.

Suffer in Silence.

I have this feeling.

I don’t know for sure what it is.

Even, love is too magnificent for this slight of feeling.

crush is just too, teenagers since I’m sort of, turning into adults.

This hidden feeling, sometimes killing.

However, what’s the point of confessing, even if I do, he might not have the same feeling.

Even when I told I’m jealous, sure as hell not my business.

It might be cheesy, you can screw me, but, it’s true,

The best thing human can do is, just wishing for the one s/he loves’ happines.

You know, I am on that stage.

Feeling easy when he’s happy. Even when I know he’ll not. Even when I know he is walking in a wrong decision. I am just at ease he’s fine.

GODDAMNIT!

And I just can’t let my mind think of another human.

That’s why I hate emptiness. That’s why I hate my heart is empty.

People randomly go into your heart, you know.

and I’m on that stage.

Burying Feeling. Suffer in Silence.